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hummingbirdmadgirlso i -could- have had surgery on my kidney this past thursday (wheee!) but there was nowhere near enough time to do all the pre op testing, schedule my anesthesia guy or train his replacement (he was on vacation last week), get my cardiac guy on call, get my oncologist prepared, start pre meds, and know that everything would be safe. one thing that is suuuuper annoying thanks to masto is that surgery under general anesthesia is more risky than for the general population due to reactions to all sorts of drugs. sadly this kidney thing is more complicated than the last time, so i can't get ESWL done, it needs to be laproscopic and apparently this is just complicated enough that doing it under twilight isn't possible. i guess this kidney stone is HUGE and will require lasers and stuff.
so this week i go in to get my kidney taken care of and hopefully that will be that. this surgery is more invasive than the ESWL but it's also got a better turn around healing wise. though in the same vein, last time i had ESWL my father in law had a massive heart attack the next day which required a quadruple bipass, so no matter what healing this time around is going to be more comfortable.
this has sucked so much though. again the no pain meds thing is fantastic to deal with, but i'm also astounded at how utterly exhausted i have become over the past week. my temporary totem animal is the sloth and it sucks. it sucks because i feel a hundred years older than i actually am. on the other hand, if i were to be spending more time awake, i'd be considering laying down on my bass amp and making a ton of noise to see if that got me anywhere stone wise. so i guess sleeping a lot right now is probably for the better.
one thing i have noticed is that getting sick has seriously amped up some weird longing for boston that i didn't even know was there. while i fully admit that moving to LA hasn't been as successful or exciting as i'd hoped it would be, i am not quite willing to throw in the towel just yet. but when i get sick i have this automatic desire to go home to a tiny city where things aren't on average 45 minutes away from each other and where scheduling surgery is infinitely easier because i was only dealing with one hospital, not one large hospital with two locations (ucla) and a secondary hospital for my oncology needs and getting records transferred seems tantamount to, i don't know, something big and dramatic. though people posting about the fact it's still snow and cold sort of tamps down that longing for the most part. but it is frustrating, this whole move, this whole getting sick thing. i know none of these things are permanent and they all have workarounds but bleargh.
in the meantime i've been playing a lot of bioshock infinite and it seems to have been infiltrating my dreams. so i'm glad i'm not playing TWD anymore because i don't think i'd be too psyched about zombie dreams.
so this week i go in to get my kidney taken care of and hopefully that will be that. this surgery is more invasive than the ESWL but it's also got a better turn around healing wise. though in the same vein, last time i had ESWL my father in law had a massive heart attack the next day which required a quadruple bipass, so no matter what healing this time around is going to be more comfortable.
this has sucked so much though. again the no pain meds thing is fantastic to deal with, but i'm also astounded at how utterly exhausted i have become over the past week. my temporary totem animal is the sloth and it sucks. it sucks because i feel a hundred years older than i actually am. on the other hand, if i were to be spending more time awake, i'd be considering laying down on my bass amp and making a ton of noise to see if that got me anywhere stone wise. so i guess sleeping a lot right now is probably for the better.
one thing i have noticed is that getting sick has seriously amped up some weird longing for boston that i didn't even know was there. while i fully admit that moving to LA hasn't been as successful or exciting as i'd hoped it would be, i am not quite willing to throw in the towel just yet. but when i get sick i have this automatic desire to go home to a tiny city where things aren't on average 45 minutes away from each other and where scheduling surgery is infinitely easier because i was only dealing with one hospital, not one large hospital with two locations (ucla) and a secondary hospital for my oncology needs and getting records transferred seems tantamount to, i don't know, something big and dramatic. though people posting about the fact it's still snow and cold sort of tamps down that longing for the most part. but it is frustrating, this whole move, this whole getting sick thing. i know none of these things are permanent and they all have workarounds but bleargh.
in the meantime i've been playing a lot of bioshock infinite and it seems to have been infiltrating my dreams. so i'm glad i'm not playing TWD anymore because i don't think i'd be too psyched about zombie dreams.
